Saturday, December 18, 2010

MS is like traffic...

I came up with this today and it gave me a bit of a chuckle so I thought I would share...hope y'all enjoy...
MS is like Traffic..

  1. Just because you do everything possible to avoid it, doesn’t mean it won’t still happen
  2. It will make you crabby
  3. It will cause the nicest people to say foul things, get angry and even cry
  4. If you are in a hurry, it will inevitably cause problems
  5. It can cause you to be late
  6. You can only hope it won’t cause accidents
  7. No matter what you do, ultimately, you can’t control it
  8. It causes you to stop and slow down more frequently than you want
  9. It seems to have a mind of its own
  10. If you aren’t careful, it will sneak right up on you

Sunday, October 3, 2010


Everyone with MS has a story. Here’s mine.
I do not want pity. I share my story simply to help others...either to better understand MS or to help someone realize that what they might be going through could be cause for concern and needs to be discussed with a doctor instead of ignored.

I am starting at the very beginning so it is rather long and detailed…so bear with me and enjoy! :)

On June 8, 2003 at 1:23 PM, I went to get up off the loveseat to get water and some orange juice. I had gone out the night before to celebrate my 23rd birthday and thought water & OJ would help me feel a bit better. I wasn’t hung over, but wasn’t feeling good either. As I sat up and began easing myself off the loveseat, everything around me started spinning uncontrollably and I fell back into the loveseat. Within a matter of seconds, my father and brother were kneeling at my side. My father had me lay down. We all hoped the uncontrollable spinning would be over quickly. It took roughly 10 minutes for the spinning to slow down enough that I could move to the couch and lay down fully. However, the spinning didn’t go away, it merely slowed down. I slept for probably 4 hours afterward. When I woke up, I was still extremely dizzy and the feelings of fear and panic quickly loomed over me. I saw my doctor at Kaiser Permanente the next day. It was a disheartening experience to walk through the halls clinging to my father just to be able to walk. The doctor told me that I had experienced a vertigo spell. He explained that sometimes it can last up to 7 to 10 days. He said that meclizine (aka Dramamine) would help control the dizziness until it subsided. He also had my blood drawn to rule out any other, more serious issues. Over the next two weeks, I went through countless little containers of Dramamine hoping that it would help with the dizziness since the doctor said it would. After 14 days, I was still dizzy, had tinnitus (ringing in the ears) and the Dramamine had done nothing to help me. I made another appointment with the doctor and he admitted he was a bit baffled that the dizziness hadn’t subsided. He drew more blood to run more tests and said that this could be a case of Meniere’s Disease, which he found strange because I was so young. He referred me to an ear, nose, throat (ENT) specialist for further testing and diagnosis. (Meniere’s Disease is a vestibular disorder that produces a recurring set of symptoms as a result of abnormally large amounts of fluid called endolymph collecting in the inner ear. It usually affects people in their 40s and 50s. More info can be found at http://vestibular.org/index.php). I went to the ENT specialist and was told that I had Meniere’s Disease and was given a prescription for 2mg Valium. I continued to work full-time and care for my 3 year old twins while on 2mg Valium over the next 8 months or so.

My chronic dizziness was the worst in the first year. Most days, I felt like I was walking on a boat. There were days when I would have severe attacks of vertigo and other days I’d have minor attacks of vertigo. The scariest attack happened within the first year. I was sitting on my father’s bed, in the middle of a conversation with my brother and all of a sudden, I couldn’t hear anything and I couldn’t talk. As I started to get off the bed to head to the bathroom (dizziness can make you nauseated), my brother headed to get my father. I crawled to the bathroom and passed out on the floor. I don’t remember anything after that. However, my brother and father have told me stories of things I said as they were moving me to the couch. I slept for almost 5 hours after that attack. I saw the ENT specialist shortly after that attack. When I mentioned it to him, he didn’t seem surprised and he didn’t mention anything about taking an MRI or changing medicines. I stopped taking the 2mg Valium because it wasn’t doing anything for the dizziness…just made me not as anxious or worried about the attacks. Plus, with addiction on both sides of my family history, I didn’t like the fact that Valium is addicting. Luckily, my employer switched health insurance companies and I was able to get away from Kaiser Permanente. I found a new primary care doctor and was able to start fresh. He immediately referred me to a neurologist for additional testing and insight. I was still dizzy, continued to have tinnitus and had developed migraine headaches. My appointment in 2004 with the neurologist was much more productive. The neurologist did a “tilt test” (can’t remember the exact name) and various other tests. He also ordered an MRI (no contrast). He wasn’t sure Meniere’s Disease was the proper diagnosis even though my symptoms fit the definition. He also referred me to see “the dizzy doctor” (an otoneurologist that specializes in dizziness) for additional testing. The blood work & MRI didn’t show anything out of the ordinary. He told me that my MRI had one little white spot on my brain that was indicative of migraines. When I met with the otoneurologist, I took several different tests that are commonly used to determine balance disorders – Electronystagmography (ENG), Videonystagmography (VNG), Caloric Test and Hearing Test. The otoneurologist told me that I didn’t have documented progressive hearing loss that is common with Meniere’s Disease and therefore, didn’t have it. She told me that I had migraine induced dizziness. She explained that the dizziness can be present even if the headache part of the migraine isn’t. During the next year, I had follow-up appointments with both the neurologist and otoneurologist and tried many different medications to reduce my dizziness & anxiety about my dizziness. I also mentioned that I felt like I was losing my hearing, especially if any kind of background noise was present, but none of my hearing tests were reflecting this.

At this point in time (2004), I was getting frustrated because I was dizzy and had tinnitus 24/7/365, had hearing issues that weren’t showing up when tested and had frequent pain/fullness in my left ear. I was also coming to the realization that maybe…just maybe…doctors don’t know everything (gee, ya think?! LOL). I wasn’t sure that I could continue working and was seriously concerned about the future. I actually started down the path of applying for SSDI, even went to “their” doctor for testing and then ended up withdrawing my application (hindsight…I should have just continued). 2005 and 2006 were pretty uneventful and I am thankful for that. I continued my follow-up appointments with my neurologist, but not the otoneurologist. My migraine headaches weren’t frequent like they had been in 2004, but my dizziness, tinnitus, ear pain/fullness & hearing issues continued 24/7/365. However, by this time, I had learned to manage & live with these issues. At one point in 2006, I asked my neurologist if he thought we should take another MRI just to check on things….he told me NO because things were going well. (I think he wishes now that he had ordered the MRI…maybe my MS could have been caught sooner…hindsight is always 20/20 LOL). I was happy as a popcorn fart that things seemed to be on a decent track in 2006. However, in 2007, vertigo spells and migraines started showing up again….GREAT…NOT! After working at a new place of employment for about 8 months, I had to disclose my issues. Luckily, the vertigo spells & migraines weren’t any different than before…at least this was true until 2008.


(Get ready for the GOOD part LOL)

On Sunday, June 1st, 2008 at 12:31am (okay technically June 2nd)…I was woken up by the most excruciating headache that I have ever experienced…ever! It felt like the left side of my head was 10 times its size and felt like it was going to explode. It also felt like the lower portion of the back side of my head was being squeezed….like there was pressure that needed to be relieved. At the time, my father was living with me and I woke him up to help me figure out what was going on and what to do. I immediately took 800mg ibuprofen and got on the phone with the 24 hour nurse line from my health insurance company. The nurse recommended going to the ER. I was in so much pain that I laid down on the couch and was moving every which way to try to get comfortable. The ibuprofen wasn’t even close to touching the pain I was feeling. I also called the on-call neurologist from my neurologist’s office and was told to go to the ER “if I felt it was bad enough to wake up a neurologist in the middle of the night” (he wasn’t friendly and pissed me off with that statement). After about an hour, the pain wasn’t changing and I started calling a close friend to come get me and take me to the ER. About 20 minutes later, my friend was on her way over. A few minutes after I got off the phone, I threw up and the pain was reduced. About 10 minutes later my friend showed up and we headed to the ER while my father stayed home with my kids. Luckily, the ER wasn’t busy and I was seen almost immediately. I went through my story, history, list of meds/vitamins, etc. with the nurse. She started me on fluids and within a few minutes, the doctor came in. The ER doctor told me that I had a tension headache (HA!) and offered to give me some more fluids and headache medicine…I declined and went home. By now, it was June 2nd (Monday) and I called in sick to work. I slept almost all day afterward. When I woke up, I felt weak, extremely dizzy, had blurred & double vision, had ringing in my ears (tinnitus) and was exhausted. I called my primary doctor & neurologist to schedule appointments. I knew that what I had experienced was NOT a tension headache. I knew that there was something serious going on and I had to find out what it was. I was scared that I could have a brain tumor like my mother had passed away from 8 years before because it had started as a headache and by day # 3, she couldn’t even dress herself. My appointment with my primary doctor was scheduled for June 4th (Wednesday) and the appointment with my neurologist was scheduled for June 25th. Later that evening, I had another headache…not as bad as the first one, but the only thing that made it better was throwing up. This second headache lasted about two hours and ibuprofen didn’t touch the pain again. However, I noticed after it subsided that the left side of my face was sort of numb….like that feeling you have after going to the dentist and the novacane is wearing off…not completely numb, but very weird. The next day was June 3rd (Tuesday) and I (stupidly) went to work. I worked all day and had discussions with my co-workers about everything that had gone on since Sunday. Within a few hours of coming home from work, I had another headache. Headache # 3 was very similar to the second one so I was thankful my doctor appointment was the next day. On June 4th (Wednesday) I was thankful to have a mini-vacation previously scheduled and was able to sleep in and get ready for my doctor appointment without rushing. When I went to see my primary care doctor, he understood my concerns about these horrible headaches, the severity of dizziness they had triggered along with the numbness affecting the left side of my face. He ordered a CT scan to see if anything would show up with the main concern being to rule out internal bleeding in my brain. I had another headache several hours after arriving home from my doctor appointment. Headache # 4 wasn’t as severe as the first three and was more like a migraine. On June 5th (Thursday) I had another headache in the morning that was more like a migraine. To me, this was a good sign that whatever had caused the first three…had settled down a bit. By this day, I had also noticed that there was a lingering pulsation that wasn’t going away…along with the continued headaches, severe dizziness, blurred/double vision, nausea, numbness in the left side of my face, weakness, exhaustion and tightness in the lower back portion of my head. On June 6th (Friday) I went and did the CT scan…drove myself and shouldn’t have because for some strange reason, it made me extremely sick and dizzier than I already was. I managed to safely drive myself back home and slept for several hours in order to recoup. Around 5pm I received a call from my doctor’s nurse and was told that there was nothing on the CT scan that was alarming. Good new for the weekend! The next day was June 7th (Saturday) and my 28th birthday. For the first time in a week…I didn’t have a headache…a birthday present to celebrate. We didn’t do anything big for my birthday…just took it easy and enjoyed time together as a family (me, my kids, brother, and father). Over the next 18 days, I worked during the week and slept a ton in the evenings and on weekends. Also, we either ate microwavable meals or fast food because I couldn’t cook. I didn’t have another major headache, the tightness affecting the lower left side of my head had subsided and the numbness affecting the left side of my face had gone away by June 14th. However, I was still experiencing the pulsations, dizziness, vision problems and exhaustion.

I saw my neurologist on June 25th. We went over everything I experienced in the last 25 days and he reviewed the CT scan. He saw a white patch on the left side of my brain and ordered an MRI (with and without contrast) to be done asap. I had my MRI on July 1st. My neurologist called me the next day. I will never forget…I was at work and it was a little after 5pm. He asked me if I was sitting (never a good thing to hear at the start of a conversation with a doctor). I told him no, but that I would go sit down at my desk. He explained that demyleination had occurred and that I may have Multiple Sclerosis. He had to explain what demyleination was because I had never heard of it before. He told me that with the size and location of this demyleination…I shouldn’t be seeing, hearing or walking. He told me that he was shocked that I was doing all three because he’d never seen anyone with lesions like mine that were able to. He wanted to schedule an appointment asap to discuss everything. I was thrilled that I wasn’t dying, but at the same time, I was a bit concerned about what he said. I saw my neurologist again on July 10th and brought my brother with so that I wouldn’t miss anything. We reviewed my MRI images and he showed me various different lesions. He explained that he was pretty sure that I have MS, but to be absolutely sure, I would need to have a lumbar puncture (spinal tap) and he would like me to get a second opinion from the head of neurology at University of Colorado Hospital (because he studied under him). I had my lumbar puncture on July 14th and that was not a fun experience. As soon as the needle was inserted where it needed to be and spinal fluid started draining, I got hot, sweaty, extremely dizzy and felt like I was going to throw up. I had one nurse on my left holding a cool wash cloth on my forehead and another on my right holding a puke tray while the technician tried to get spinal fluid out of my back. Normally it doesn’t take long to get the necessary 10cc’s of spinal fluid needed to test for MS. However, (if you haven’t already noticed) I don’t do anything the “normal” way…the technician got 2cc’s of fluid and started asking me if I had drank enough water and various other questions in an attempt to figure out why he wasn’t getting more. I had to lay there with the needle in my back, staying as still as my body would allow (not easy when it wants to be shaky) while he called the head technician to come down and try to get more spinal fluid from me. They were “digging” in my back for 45 minutes until they finally gave up. I overheard their conversation as they were trying to figure out how to get more spinal fluid from me. The technician asked the head technician if they should move the needle “down one” and the head technician said no because it was in the exact spot it should be. Toward the end, they explained that they will only run the most important tests with what they were able to get. Afterwards, I was moved to outpatient recovery for monitoring because you can get a really nasty “spinal headache” after a lumbar puncture. Luckily, I didn’t get the “spinal headache” and was released to go home about an hour later. On 7/22/08, I got a call from my neurologist with the news that the results of the lumbar puncture were back and confirmed MS. We agreed that I would start disease modifying therapy right away, even though I couldn’t see the head neurologist at University of Colorado Hospital until October 2008.

I started Copaxone on 8/6/08. By this date, I had stopped at the library and picked up every book possible about MS. Most of them were outdated, but I did find one called “New Hope and Practical Advice for People with MS and Their Families” by Louis J. Rosner, MD & Shelley Ross that was good. I also watched the DVD about Copaxone and felt that I had made the best choice for disease modifying therapy to fit my lifestyle as a single mother raising twins and working full-time. Over the next several months, I got used to taking my shots and continued to work full-time. In October 2008, I met with the head neurologist at University of Colorado Hospital for the second opinion diagnosis. He confirmed that there were 9 lesions on my brain, three of them primary. There was no doubt that I had MS. In fact, he stated that I had never had Meniere’s Disease and that it had been MS since 2003. This statement prompted me to spend the next six months trying to prove him wrong. I wasn’t able to prove him wrong and finally accepted the fact that I had MS since 2003 by April 2009. Going backwards a bit, in November 2008, I attended MS101, a course offered by The Rocky Mountain MS Center, and found it to be helpful in understanding my chronic illness. In December 2008, my kids got me a cane for Christmas. In February 2009, I met with a new ear, nose, throat (ENT) specialist. I liked this ENT because he actually listened to me. He actually sat down and showed me the hearing test and why I didn’t actually have hearing loss. At first, he said that the pain/fullness in my left ear was from TMJ and clenching my jaw. However, later in the month I went to a dentist appointment and there were no signs of this on my teeth and therefore proved that theory wrong. We discussed the hearing loss that I have experienced since 2004 and he mentioned something called Auditory Processing Disorder (APD). He explained that it is more commonly associated with children than adults, but it fits what I described. I went home and read information about APD and for the first time in 6 years…I knew that it fit perfectly. APD is how my brain processes what I hear and since one of my three primary lesions affects hearing…it fit! The down-side is that there isn’t an effective way to fix APD or make it better. I can’t just wear a hearing aid and be all better. Instead, I have to constantly ask people to repeat themselves and avoid background noise whenever possible.

In March 2009, I did a presentation about MS at work for MS Awareness Month. As I got up to do my presentation, I was fully prepared to stand for the next 5 minutes. However, my legs had a different idea. As I looked out over the crowd of my co-workers, I got nervous for a second and my right leg started shaking uncontrollably and I was forced to sit on a stool that was near me. This was a new development. I had noticed my hands would get shaky when I would do my shots in my hips, but had never experienced shakiness in my legs. I mentioned this development to my neurologist, but he didn’t seem to think much of it and I remained on Copaxone. The next major event was my annual MRI (with and without contrast), which occurred in November 2009. A few days later my neurologist called with the news that there were no new lesions and no activity in my existing lesions. Through 2009, I continued to read books about MS and work full-time (even though I probably shouldn’t have). My children and I got used to the idea that MS was part of our lives. Their chores increased and I had to let activities and things go by the way side. I would spend the weekends sleeping while my kids cleaned, played games on the computer, watched movies and basically fended for themselves. Toward the end of 2009, I was able to have a functional evaluation done. When I received the results of my evaluation, I cried for several hours. Even though I knew MS had affected many areas of my life, it was rather upsetting to see everything that MS had affected documented in a 27 page report. In December 2009, I had 14 days off from work for Christmas vacation. It took 10 of those days to really start feeling better and this was when I realized how sick working was making me. I was spending all of my energy (the little amount I had) working and had nothing left for my kids and my home. It was very difficult to return to work on 1/4/10.

Over the next several months, my fatigue and dizziness got worse and I would come home from work, cry, take a nap, send the kids to bed and cry some more. By March 2010, I left work on short-term disability. On 4/2/10, my short-term disability was approved (thanks to the functional evaluation). I was able to take a vacation in June 2010 to attend a close friend’s wedding in Montana. The climate difference had an impact on my MS. I felt much better in Montana and realized that living in Colorado is keeping me sick. This was solidified once we returned home to Colorado from our vacation and I was immediately sick again. My kids and I made the decision that we would move to Montana within the next few years. On 7/12/10, I had a follow up appointment with my neurologist. It was hot that day and I was not doing well. My neurologist made note of this and began wondering if my MS had progressed to secondary-progressive from relapsing-remitting (which I think it has been since 2008 and have mentioned this to him before). I told him that I didn’t think that the Copaxone was working because of the shakiness in my right leg causing me not to be able to walk or stand for longer than 5 to 10 minutes. This had gotten worse since March 2009 and therefore, progression (even though nothing had shown up on my MRI in November 2009). My neurologist suggested switching medications to Rebif and I agreed. I started Rebif on 8/3/10 and have been on it ever since. I was happy that I didn’t have injection site reactions like I previously had on Copaxone. However, I was not thrilled with the flu-like symptoms and body temperature increase. I have continued Rebif for two months and these side effects have continued. My hope is that they will go away within the next month because the nurse and many others that have taken Rebif say they will. I also don’t like that Rebif can have an impact on my liver. I had my liver tested earlier this month and the results came back that one enzyme is slightly high, but stable and there is a note to re-check it in six months. I also don’t like the fact that Rebif (or maybe the side effects) make me crabby. I have been extremely crabby in the last month and my kids have said that they don’t like how crabby my medicine makes me. Plus, I’m not sure that Rebif is working. From 9/21/10 to 9/27/10, I experienced a squeezing/tightness in the lower back left portion of my head. I am pretty sure this is the location of my biggest primary lesion and this has me concerned. I haven’t had a clearly defined exacerbation, but have noticed that my dizziness has been worse than normal. I left a message for my neurologist because I felt it was important to mention this squeezing/tightness. I hoped that he would order an MRI to check for lesion activity. The only other time that I have experienced this squeezing/tightness was in 2008, right after my headaches/initial exacerbations. Unfortunately, my neurologist called back and stated that the squeezing/tightness isn’t usually associated with exacerbations (yeah right!) and that he didn’t feel it was necessary to order an MRI or see me sooner than my scheduled appointment on 10/8/10. Although I’m disappointed with my neurologist’s handling of this, I will wait until 10/8/10 and have a discussion with him at that time.

Thanks for reading! I hope that this has given you a better understanding of MS…at least from one person’s perspective and experience.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

UNWANTED (a poem about MS)

UNWANTED
You came in and took over
No one asked you to
You are unwanted

You cause the room to spin You bring me to my knees
You are unwanted

You slow my mind almost to a halt
You make the words hard to say
You are unwanted

You crash parties
You make it difficult to do anything
You are unwanted

You make me exhausted
You make my bed my safe haven
You are unwanted

You blur my vision
You numb different parts of me
You are unwanted

You make my ears hurt
You make it hard to hear
You are unwanted

You make my legs feel like jello
You make my hands shake
You are unwanted

You make heat my enemy
You make fun only a memory that is quickly fading
You are unwanted

You make me miserable
You took my life many years ago
You are unwanted

You are Multiple Sclerosis
And I hate you
You are unwanted

Copyright Tiffany Harper 2005
(revised 9/23/10)

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Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Pills, needles & surgery...oh my!



It is funny how a particular topic sticks with you. I have been thinking about this topic for about a month now and must blog to help ease my mind. LOL

Important Note - The information listed below is that of my own opinion and is not meant to be medical advice. I have no medical background and am just a person living with MS that has developed a passion for sharing information (and my opinion) with others. Always consult your doctor for medical advice.

Okay...
There is a bunch of information swarming the internet about various different treatments for MS and a bunch of opinions about which is better. I have mentioned before and will mention again...MS is DIFFERENT for everyone. In the two years I have been officially diagnosed, I haven't met one person that is on the same exact list of meds.

There are different kinds and different purposes for every single one. There are meds called disease modifying therapies, meds to help manage symptoms, complementary & alternative meds & practices and even surgery. It can be rather confusing....but that is normal for MS! LOL I will try to break it down into sections for easy reading:

Disease Modifying Therapies ~
The disease modifying therapies are Copaxone, Rebif, Betaseron, Novantrone, Avonex & Tysabri. The purpose of a disease modifying therapy is to slow the progression of an individual's MS. They are all administered by injection or IV infusion and each have their own set of side effects.

I found this link that describes each of the disease modifying therapies~
http://ms.about.com/od/treatments/a/ms_treatment.htm

It is common that a person newly diagnosed with MS is told to start a disease modifying therapy ASAP to slow the progression of their disease as quickly and as early as possible.

MS Management ~
Each person with MS has different symptoms and there is usually a combination of medicines and therapies that an MSer is on. These can be anything from pills to steroids to physical therapy...it all just depends on the particular individual's needs.

The National MS Society has pages on their website dedicated to symptoms & lists common management treatments, here is the link:
http://www.nationalmssociety.org/about-multiple-sclerosis/what-we-know-about-ms/symptoms/index.aspx

Complimentary & Alternative Medicine (CAM) ~
CAM is for MSers that are looking for a more natural way to go about managing their MS. CAM includes anything from lifestyle changes to vitamins to acupuncture. There tends to be not enough information out there about these treatments and so caution & consulting your doctor is always recommended. The National MS Society has put together some information that is helpful, here is the link:
http://www.nationalmssociety.org/about-multiple-sclerosis/what-we-know-about-ms/treatments/complementary--alternative-medicine/index.aspx

There is also a book specifically about CAM that is available, called "Complimentary and Alternative Medicine and Multiple Sclerosis by Dr. Allen C. Bowling, MD, PhD...here is the link:
http://www.demosmedpub.com/prod.aspx?prod_id=9781932603545

Newest Treatments ~
There are two things that are BIG topics in the MS world...oral medications and CCSVI.
The oral medications are still in clinical trials and there are reports of serious side effects, but I have read that there is potential that they will be approved by the FDA in the next year and make a slow penetration into the market. Here is an article on the oral medication topic:
http://www.minyanville.com/businessmarkets/articles/ms-multiple-sclerosis-ms-treatments-gilenia/9/20/2010/id/30177

CCSVI is actually a surgery to open veins that aren't allowing proper blood flow from the brain & spine to the heart. CCSVI is still very controversial, especially with relation to MS and the effectiveness. However, I've read several success stories and some are even calling it a "liberation treatment". Here is a link with more detailed information about CCSVI:
http://csvi-ms.net/en

Now that I've listed all of the information about many of the current treatments for MS (and I know there are probably more that I didn't even cover)....I'll explain why the topic of this blog post is "Pills, needles & surgery...oh my!" I think that there is a common frustration among MSers because there isn't a clear understanding of the long-term affects of the medications that we are being told to take. The common age for diagnosis is between 20 to 40 years old and since MS is a chronic illness...that means we are going to be living with it for another 40 to 60 years or so. I think this generates a desperation to find a cure...or at the very least a better way to manage the progression & symptoms! When I was first diagnosed in 2008, I was ready to start disease modifying therapy and take whatever pills necessary to maintain my life. However, the more I accepted my MS and the longer I continued to take my medications...the more I realized how frustrating it is to be on pills & injections the rest of my life. I want a cure....period. Sure, sounds simple enough, right?! HA! I doubt that we will ever see a cure for MS (or any other chronic illness or cancer for that matter). There is something seriously messed up about the government because it is not an easy process to get the necessary research funded. Plus, think about it...if cures were found...how much money would the health care industry and pharmaceutical companies lose?! Billions and billions of dollars are spent every year by those that are living with chronic illnesses and trying to save themselves from cancers. Hmmm...I know...sounds like a conspiracy theory...but it does make one wonder....

Phew...I'm glad to have gotten this topic out of my head for now.

Thanks for reading! Hugs to all!!! :)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Coconut oil...beneficial for those with MS???



A little over a week ago I added coconut oil to my daily dose of supplements. Coconut oil had been suggested by a very dear friend of mine back in April 2010 and I didn't jump on the coconut train at that time because I was hesitant and a little fearful about how my body would react...hindsight is always 20/20 right?! LOL
A few weeks ago I got a nasty cold and was very frustrated with my lack of progress in getting better...which sent me into a spiral of trying to find the best way to get healthier and stay healthier. There have been a bunch of suggestions, but the only one I'm talking about today is COCONUT OIL.


I am not an expert by any means, but I have 9 days under my belt and feel confident that I can share some information that might just benefit others...primarily those with autoimmune diseases such as MS.


The benefits of coconut oil are pretty impressive, I found several areas on the web that have listed them:
1. Coconut Research Center
http://www.coconutresearchcenter.org/
2. Universal Health Tips
http://universalhealthtips.com/coconut-oil-health-benefits.html
3. Forbes Nutritional Services
http://www.forbesnutritionalservices.com/?p=44


Anytime we try something new, our body is going to react. It is always a good idea to talk with your doctor about starting new regimens. With that being said, you know your body, so do what you feel is best. However, it is important to know what can occur when starting a new regimen if information is available. For coconut oil, something called "The Herx Effect" can occur, please read the list here:
http://www.earthtym.net/ref-herxheimer.htm


My personal experience...
I started out doing 1 Tbsp. coconut oil in a bowl of oatmeal in the mornings and within a few days was able to increase to 2 Tbsp. With 2 Tbsp. I would either put my coconut oil in a smoothie and drink it or add it to 2 packets of oatmeal in the mornings. For 3 Tbsp. I have been doing smoothies because I simply don't like the taste of it right off the spoon...but if you do, then I'd do it that way...seems much easier to me. I plan to stick with 3 Tbsp. for the next week before I increase to the maximum daily dose of 4 Tbsp. I just want to be absolutely sure my body is ready for the full dose and I feel that staying with 3 Tbsp. for a week is the best way to do so.


As for the Herx effect/detox issues...I haven't really had anything too major (thankfully). I think it was the 5th day (and was at either 2 Tbsp. or 3 Tbsp.) when I had an incident during the night where I woke up feeling really HOT and my heart was racing. This only lasted about 15 minutes and after moving to the living room, I was able to doze back to sleep. I had one day where I was peeing more than normal. I have noticed that I have actually been more hungry since starting the coconut oil...which might be a good sign that my body is wanting nutrients instead of just living on one to two meals per day. I was sick with a nasty cold when I started coconut oil and feel that it helped my body fight the cold better than if I hadn't started taking it. Another thing I have noticed...my underwear, pants & shirts are a little more loose than before I started coconut oil...I don't think this is weight loss because the scale hasn't shown anything, but rather GI reduction (which is consistent with my friend's findings).


I also noticed on the 8th day (3 Tbsp.) that I actually had a bit of energy...which is an absolutely amazing feeling after 2 years of feeling completely and utterly drained.


All in all...I am going to continue using coconut oil daily because my findings are too positive not to!


On a final note...a few suggestions:
1. Start out out slow when adding Coconut Oil to your daily regimen. Start with 1 Tbsp. and pay attention to your body. 
2. Make notes in a journal for easy reference.
3. Increase your daily dose by 1 Tbsp. per week until you reach the maximum dose of 4 Tbsp. per week.
4. Read "Coconut Cures" by Bruce Fife. This book also details the benefits of coconut oil. Here is the link:
http://www.piccadillybooks.com/coconut-cures.htm
5. Purchasing coconut oil - Purchase either virgin or extra virgin coconut oil. I bought Nature's Way...different brands are going to taste slightly different. You can either purchase at a local health food store or online in bulk.


Thanks for reading!!! Hugs to all!!! :)

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Tips for preventing cold & flu...

As I mentioned in my previous post, I was going to do some research on my questions that were triggered from getting a cold. I found some great info on webmd.com about prevention along w/ an article on what doctors do to prevent colds & germs:
Tips for preventing a cold ~
http://www.webmd.com/cold-and-flu/cold-guide/11-tips-prevent-cold-flu?page=2


Article, How Doctors Avoid Colds & Keep Germs at Bay ~
http://www.webmd.com/cold-and-flu/features/preventing-cold-and-flu-how-doctors-keep-germs-at-bay


I also found a short article about preventing a cold from turning to pneumonia ~
http://health.howstuffworks.com/wellness/preventive-care/how-to-prevent-respiratory-infections3.htm


After reading all 3 of these, I think that there is some good advice here. However, sometimes you can do everything and still get a cold. Although, I think we all can do a little more in our daily lives to help keep colds away.


If you do get a cold, then it's time to take the best care possible of your body (ie. drink plenty of fluids, rest & take the appropriate medicine or supplement, always check with your doctor first).


From my personal experiences over the years...
Vitamin C ~
Before I was diagnosed with MS in 2008, I used to increase my Vitamin C from my normal daily dose of 1,000 mg/day to 2,000 & 3,000 mg/day when I felt like I was beginning to get sick. For me, it helped keep colds at bay or reduced how long I had a cold. Post diagnosis, I have tried 2 or 3 times to increase my Vitamin C like I used to and have found that it isn't good for me anymore. It actually causes near my brain stem & the back of my head (lower left)...which happens to be where one of my lesions is. Plus, it no longer helps keep the cold at bay. I would caution anyone with MS about increasing their Vitamin C because it is an immune system activator and since we have an overactive immune system already, it could trigger exacerbations. (this is my personal opinion as I have no medical background.) I do, however, take 1,000 mg/day still and that is my maximum.


Echinacea ~
I attempted echinacea many years ago and never found it to be effective when dealing with colds. Here, I caution anyone to do their research about herbal remedies. Make sure that you know all of the side affects & check interactions with any other medicines and/or herbs that you are currently taking.


Over-the-counter (OTC) medicines ~
As mentioned in the article about doctors, use sparingly. Colds are a pain in the behind, but you don't want to take stuff you don't need (which many OTC medicines contain). For my colds, my doctor always recommends Mucinex (blue box only due to interactions w/ other medicines that I'm on). I think Mucinex (or store brand version) is extremely effective for colds. I give my kids the Mucinex for children when they get colds...there are packets that they just dissolve on their tongues and they don't mind taking them, which is great, especially when you have a picky kid that almost always refuses to take medicine because it "tastes too icky"! However, there are tons of different medicines on shelves, just make sure to read the ingredients and only take what you need for your particular symptoms. If you aren't sure, it's always a good idea to check with your doctor or pharmacist for guidance.


Vicks Vapor Rub~
This always triggers a memory of my grandma...she would always put Vicks on before bed. Whenever we would visit, she would smell of Vicks when she gave us hugs before bed. I wasn't a big fan of Vicks until last year....my daughter had a cough that was problematic. We picked up a small container of Vicks and it helped a great deal for her cough. Last week when I got this stupid cold, I was so frustrated that I thought I'd give it a try myself. I used Vicks on my chest, just under my nose AND on my feet (covered w/ cotton socks)....and it actually helped a great deal within a few minutes. I was impressed.


Coconut Oil ~
I have a friend that swears by coconut oil. I have started to take it as a daily supplement and after 4 days, am starting to feel pretty good. I have read the benefits and am impressed.Coconut oil can be mixed in with your morning oatmeal, smoothies, used in baking or eat it right off the spoon. If interested, check out the benefits here ~ http://www.coconutresearchcenter.org/


Flu vaccination~
Okay, I heard on the radio that it is being recommended that EVERYONE get a flu shot this year. I know that my doctor gives me a lecture every time I go in to see him during the fall/winter months about getting a flu shot. Personally, I will never take a flu shot. I got a flu shot several years in a row (many years ago) and wound up very sick for 2 months after each one. Therefore, I'm not interested. However, I know others that get one religiously every year and do just fine. To me, this is a personal preference and should be discussed with your doctor.


I'm sure there are other things I may be forgetting, but those are the main ones I can think of right now.


Hopefully everyone can stay healthy during this cold/flu season. :)

Friday, September 3, 2010

Getting a cold while having MS....

Having MS makes everything more complicated!

We are coming upon cold & flu season. Well, actually, it has already hit my area of Colorado. My kids started school on August 18th and my son was sick starting 8/30 causing him to miss the only 2 days of school he had this week. By Tuesday night, I was sick too. As a parent, it is always a "roll of the dice" whether you will get sick when kiddos bring home the germs from school. However, as a parent with MS...it is almost a guarantee that you will get sick when they bring them home. Why?! Because your immune system is already wonky. 

My son was very conscious about washing his hands, covering his mouth, disinfecting the keyboard and felt really bad when I wound up sick too. I had to reassure him that it wasn't his fault. Yes, he brought it home, but that was probably a few days before he actually showed signs of being sick and there is no way to know until he was actually sick....and by then it is too late. 

For me, this triggers my curious mind to start pondering....and a rather odd visual of me walking around my home wearing latex gloves & a mask...
What can we do to prevent these seasonal colds and germs in our home?
Does this mean that I need to become a germophob (no offense to those that are) and fear germs and keep my apartment absolutely germ free?
What should I do to beat a cold so it doesn't linger for weeks to months?
What should I do to make sure that a cold doesn't get worse and turn into something like pneumonia?
How does having a cold affect MS?

I haven't done any research yet on these topics, but will probably do so in the next few days and post information over the next few weeks.

I don't know anyone that enjoys being sick and I can tell you from personal experience that having a cold AND having MS....is miserable!

For now, I think I shall go use my nasal spray, inhaler, mucinex and fluids...maybe even some chicken noodle soup and zone into a game or two on pogo.com before I lay down for sleep...with the hope that I can actually sleep without coughing all night.

Until next time...

Thursday, August 26, 2010

MS & Parenting....

Last week I was reading my copy of Momentum, quarterly magazine by the National MS Society (NMSS). It can be read online as well: 
http://www.nationalmssociety.org/multimedia-library/momentum-magazine/momentum-fall-2010/index.aspx


I got very excited when I saw that there was a survey about what it is like to be a parent with MS. I jumped online and pulled up the site address, which is nationalMSsociety.org/parentwithMS, and began filling out the survey. As I continued through the survey, I became disappointed that the questions where mostly directed to people with MS that were deciding to have children AFTER diagnosis along with new parents....neither of which applies to me. I was hoping the survey would include questions of what it is actually like being a parent with MS. Questions such as "Which of your symptoms do you feel has the most impact when parenting your kid(s)?" or "What kind of tools have you found to be the most helpful in talking with your kid(s) about your MS?", etc.


My disappoinmtent in this survey prompted me to search the web for tools that help parents deal with MS & parenting. 


What I found:
1. The NMSS has a quarterly magazine FOR KIDS and it can be mailed to each child that you have and can be found online: http://www.nationalmssociety.org/multimedia-library/kids-keep-smyelin/index.aspx
2. The NMSS has a 15 minute video called "Timmy's Journey to Understanding MS" that can be obtained from your local NMSS chapter, info on their website: http://www.nationalmssociety.org/multimedia-library/videos--dvds/timmy’s-journey-to-understanding-ms/index.aspx
3. A book called Multiple Sclerosis: A Guide for Families by Rosalind C. Kalib, Ph.D., description on the NMSS site: http://www.nationalmssociety.org/multimedia-library/books/a-guide-for-families/index.aspx
4. Two websites to support parents w/ MS & have forums: Moms with MS http://www.momswithms.com/ and Parenting With MS http://www.parentingwithms.com/index.html
5. Web Resources from the Multiple Sclerosis Resource Centre: http://www.msrc.co.uk/index.cfm/fuseaction/show/pageid/1077 (Check out the booklet you can download, it is awesome)
6. Video that gives advice & talks about parenting with MS: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V93TG_0LJiA


Two years ago when I did a search online, I didn't find as many things so I'm glad to see that there is more available. However, I'm still disappointment that there isn't even more...especially since MS is considered a "young disease".


For me, my children and I have spent the last two years trying to find the right balance as a family for all of us as we have dealt with my diagnosis. Our situation is different than many....we only have each other....no family or friends that are able to help on a regular basis. This leaves my kids to be the ones to do most of the chores. I do the dishes, but we have a chart that lists the chores that they have. Each child has two rooms and their bedroom to be responsible for. Plus, they have learned to do the laundry since stairs are a big issue for me. Over the last 6 months, they have expressed frustration with chores, especially laundry. Last weekend we sat down as a family and had a discussion about my MS and the fact that they are important members of my care team. I hope that the discussion was helpful...even though it didn't seem like it when I asked them to get their chores done afterwards. I also reminded them that they earn points toward reward day (special day to redeem their points that we have every 3 months or so) for doing their chores. However, this reminder didn't seem to generate the excitement toward chores that I was hoping for. This has got me thinking....I am going to have to come up with some creative ways to help them not get as frustrated with the increased responsibility they have because of my MS....before it becomes a major issue. I did find something called "MS Journey Club" in one of the issues of Keep S'myelin and it sounded perfect....a support group for kids & families.Ugh...more disappointment...I called the NMSS and was told that the "MS Journey Club" is something that each chapter decides to do and none of them are doing it right now....grrrr! I think it would be extremely helpful if kids had a place to have fun & get support...I am going to be calling my local chapter to find out why it isn't being held and see if there is any way it could be....if there is enough interest.


Well, that is about all I have on MS & Parenting for today....

Monday, August 23, 2010

Continued journey with MS...

I just read through my posts and realized that I hadn't posted much about my experience with MS...which is one of the main reasons for this blog....

I have previously blogged about it (before I switched my blog IDs) and think it best if anyone is interested in reading about my story, etc. to check it out at http://loveoftwins143.blogspot.com/

As I continue this blog, I want anyone reading to understand this:
I am just one of 2.5 million people around the world that lives with this monster...MS...and I am sharing my opinions, thoughts and story. I have no medical background....just an interest & newly developed passion. I am blunt, honest, opinionated and sarcastic....please read with an open mind.

Thanks for reading! :)

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Ahhhh....life!

In the last few weeks I have had some serious ups and serious downs. I have had some great successes AND failures along the way....


Hmmm....where to begin?!


I have always believed that EVERYTHING happens for a reason. No one may ever understand the specific reason....but they do happen for a reason. The last few weeks I have been on an emotional roller coaster and began some self reflection. Normally I welcome these phases in life where I get a chance to look inside myself and start thinking about who I am, etc. However, this particular phase....I felt tossed into a whirlwind of major obstacles and was rather pissed off about it.


My life has always had "more than your fair share" of obstacles. Therefore, I'm not extremely surprised that I continue to have them....I guess I am just tired of having so many. Now that I look back....it has been pretty much non-stop for the last two months. Our obstacles range from the computer speakers dying to being on the verge of homelessness. For the first time in my life....I can truly say that I have learned the meaning of despair (to lose all hope or confidence, ty Merriam Webster online lol). Many things are left unfixed....but (thanks to a dear & amazing friend)....we are not homeless!


I have found myself questioning WHY in the last few months...as I'm sure many of us do in difficult times. I had thoughts such as - "I am a good person, why is this happening to me?" or "My kids don't deserve this, why is this happening to them?" Well, I have no answers to either question. However, we have survived and are learning things about ourselves and each other. For example, I have learned that the lessons that I am learning have much to do with self management....things like managing finances, managing time, managing my own will power, etc. I also had the realization that my children were born to me for a reason....it is part of their path so no matter how much I feel they don't deserve the things that are happening....I know that it is part of their journey as well.


For now, I must end this blog post because I have a headache and bedtime is near. However, I will close with one particular statement that has been on my mind through all of this....


"Life was never promised to be easy....the only promise made was that it would be worth it!"


G'night :)

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Orange...

Orange has never been on my top list of colors. I'm more of a purple & blue kind of lady...


However, I have grown fond of the color orange in the last few years because it symbolizes finding a cure for MS & MS awareness....just like pink is the color for breast cancer awareness.


I have an ORANGE magnetic support ribbon on my car and an ORANGE support ribbon key chain. Last month my daughter made me an ORANGE braided support bracelet. So....I decided to paint my nails...you guessed it....ORANGE. I figured...why not?! I'm not shy about having MS...so why not start incorporating ORANGE into everything possible in order to create MS awareness and make people curious. I don't care if people stare or think I'm a bit odd...because quite frankly...being a bit odd is fun! LOL


Thinking about all the possibilities of what to make orange got my mind racing with ideas...
I could buy duct tape & turn my cane orange...and then I could go to the craft store and get letter stickers and put "CURE MS" down the front.
I could buy some bright orange shirts that I've seen at Walmart and start wearing them. (also have started thinking about phrases I could put on t-shirts like these)
I could keep re-painting my nails orange...would need to buy new polish, but that is cheap LOL
I could pick up orange bandannas for cheap and write "CURE MS" w/ sharpie on the part that covers my forehead.
I could get a 2nd magnetic support ribbon for the other side of my car.
I could get another support ribbon key chain and hang it from the handle of my cane. (once it is orange of course)
I could get some white t-shirts and tie-dye them orange. (because tie-dye is sooo hippie.....and sooo me! LOL)
I could have my daughter make a bunch more orange support bracelets. (the rubber support bracelets are so common and break easily....I know because I have large-ish wrists and have broken 3 already...grrr)
Not sure about this one....remember those old friendship bracelets?! I thought it'd be cool to figure out a way to them with the orange support ribbon in them...not sure if there is a pattern for it....but I'm sure it wouldn't be that much harder than the heart pattern that I've seen on youtube LOL


Hmmm....I'm sure I could come up with more ideas, but those are the ones I have come up with so far. I do like the idea of incorporating orange into pretty much everything....that is part of the reason the background of this page is orange...at least mostly orange ;)

Monday, August 2, 2010

Creativity...

Why is it that creativity hits in the middle of the night?! Could it be because everything is sooo very quiet?! 
Last night I tried to go to bed...tossed & turned for a good hour and got frustrated. My mind was racing with thoughts and ideas about books I could write, paintings I could do, ways to educate others about MS and many various other things. I have had this one thought for years...creating a place called "Hope Haven" and while the purpose has changed through the years...the name hasn't. However, last night I was thinking about it being a safe place...either online or a physical location, maybe both...for people with MS & their families. I decided it would be a good idea to find out if the name had already been taken. I put it on my "to-do" list in my mind and tried to move on to some much needed sleep. No matter what I did, something was bothering me....I knew that with my short-term memory being a thing of the past that I would probably forget about it if I fell asleep. I had to get up and go to the computer and search the name. I found that there are actually a handful of websites with the "Hope Haven" name...CRAP! Now what?! I guess it will be more research...I am sure there is a way to still use the name I want...just not sure how yet. At least I was able to get to sleep after I satisfied my need to find out. Plus, it doesn't really matter right now anyway because I am in no position...financial or otherwise to start some kind of organization...no matter how much passion and creativity I have. I had to giggle at myself because I have an entrepreneurial brain, always think of good ideas for businesses or organizations, but have never had the means to make them happen. Someday.....maybe LOL